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ポツポツ落ちてきた雨粒が

potsupotsu ochite kita amatsubu ga

Drops of falling rain

僕の服黒い●まるで模様つけた

boku no fuku kuroi maru de moyō tsuketa

painted black spots on my clothes.

ヒタヒタ染みてきたグラグラが

hitahita shimite kita guragura ga

The advancing giddiness permeating me

僕の中満たして侵食した

boku no naka mitashite shinshoku shita

filled me up inside and eroded me away.

思われてるほどに

omowarete'ru hodo ni

I'm not really as strong

強いわけないのに

tsuyoi wake nai no ni

as they think I am,

周りはまた

mawari wa mata

yet around me they're again

僕を押し殺す

boku o oshikorosu

squeezing the life out of me.

どうせならもう

dōsenara mō

Enough already,

放っておいてよ

hanatte oite yo

leave me alone.

期待なんてしないでよ

kitai nante shinaide yo

Stop expecting things of me.

小さくて

chiisakute

It's too small

見えなくて　でも

mienakute demo

to be seen, but

じわじわと　痛む傷が

jiwajiwa to itamu kizu ga

the wound whose pain slowly spreads,

だーれにも気づかれないまま

dāre ni mo kizukarenai mama

without anyone noticing,

ジワジワと僕を蝕む

jiwajiwa to boku o mushibamu

gradually eats away inside me.

近くに居たはずの人でさえ

chikaku ni ita hazu no hito de sae

Even the one I thought would be close

僕以上の僕を期待していて

boku ijō no boku o kitai shite ite

expects more from me than I can do,

そんなの無理だと言いたいのに

sonna no muri da to iitai no ni

and although I want to say I can't do it,

言えない弱虫がひとりきり

ienai yowamushi ga hitorikiri

the weakling who can't say it ends up alone.

「あなたなら出来て、

"anata nara dekite,

"You can do it,

当然でしょ？」なんて

tōzen desho?" nante

of course you can, can't you?"

言わんばかりの

iwan bakari no

When all I hear is

“当たり前さ”でもう

"atarimae sa" de mō

"It's nothing much,"

潰れそうです。

tsuburesō desu.

it's like I'm about to be crushed.

来ちゃいそうです。

kiechaisō desu.

It's like I'm going to disappear.

聞いてよ

kiite yo

Listen to me.

苦しいよ

kurushii yo

It hurts.

小さくて

chiisakute

It's too faint

キコエナイ　よね。

kikoenai yo ne.

to be heard, isn't it.

タスケテは届かないの

tasukete wa todokanai no

My cry for help doesn't get to anyone.

だーれにも気づかれないまま

dāre ni mo kizukarenai mama

Without anyone noticing

チクタクと針は進んだ

chikutaku to hari wa susunda

the clock ticked on.

愛されたくて寂しいこの気持ち

aisaretakute sabishii kono kimochi

This lonely feeling of wanting to be loved,

相反する拒絶したい気持ち

aihan suru kyozetsu shitai kimochi

the contrary feeling of wanting to reject,

放っておいて欲しいのに

hanatte oite hoshii no ni

although I want to be left alone,

気づいて欲しいなんて

kizuite hoshii nante

I feel like

思ってる

omotte'ru

I want you to notice me.

小さくて

chiisakute

It's too small

見えなくて　でも

mienakute demo

to be seen, but

じわじわと　痛む傷が

jiwajiwa to itamu kizu ga

the wound whose pain slowly spreads,

だーれにも気づかれないまま

dāre ni mo kizukarenai mama

without anyone noticing,

ジワジワと僕を蝕む

jiwajiwa to boku o mushibamu

gradually eats away inside me.

苦しくて

kurushikute

It's too painful

言えなくて　でも

ienakute demo

to say it, but

カクジツに　痛む胸が

kakujitsu ni itamu mune ga

my heart that is definitely hurting,

だーれにも気づかれないまま

dāre ni mo kizukarenai mama

without anyone noticing,

カタカタと崩れていくの

katakata to kuzurete iku no

clatters as it falls apart.