IF：「私という存在が消滅した世界」 ♥ IF: "Watashi to Iu Sonzai ga Shōmetsu Shita Sekai" ♥ IF: "A World in Which the Being Known as Me Has Been Extinguished"

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「生きてる」　胸に手を当て

"Ikite'ru" Mune ni te o ate

"I'm alive." I place my hand on my chest

嫌に五月蠅うるさく響く鼓動

iya ni urusaku hibiku kodō

and get annoyed at my noisy heartbeat.

目を閉じ　眠りの淵で

me o toji nemuri no fuchi de

Closing my eyes, in the depths of sleep

ふと全てが怖くなるんだ

futo subete ga kowaku naru n da

everything suddenly becomes frightening.

明日もいつもと同じ

Ashita mo itsumo to onaji

Tomorrow, same as always,

退屈に時を消費する

taikutsu ni toki o shōhi suru

I'll consume time in boredom.

僕らは　みんな

Bokura wa minna

All of us

憂鬱を抱えてくんだ

yūutsu o kakaete'ku n da

are carrying our melancholy with us.

「ねえ　もしもの話をしようか。

"Nē moshimo no hanashi o shiyō ka.

"Hey can we talk about a 'what if'?

私が死んだら悲しむかな？」

Watashi ga shindara kanashimu ka na?"

If I were to die, would you grieve?"

そんな当たり前の事を聞く

Sonna atarimae no koto o kiku

I can't get rid of your face

君の顔が消えない

kimi no kao ga kienai

when you heard such an ordinary question.

此処ここにある意識

Koko ni aru ishiki

What I'm aware of here,

認知された記憶が

ninchi sareta kioku ga

recollections of being acknowledged,

君との思い出

kimi to no omoide

they go on making

それを創り出してく

sore o tsukuridashite'ku

my memories with you.

もし君が　ある日

Moshi kimi ga aru hi

If one day you

消えてしまったのなら

kiete shimatta no nara

were to disappear … …

……なんてね　おかしいね

…… Nante ne okashii ne

It really is a strange thing to say.

今は忘れてしまおう

Ima wa wasurete shimaō

Let's forget it for now.

おやすみ。

Oyasumi.

Good night.

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「生きてる」　私は今も

"Ikite'ru" Watashi wa ima mo

"I'm alive." Still unable

何の意味も見いだせぬまま

nan no imi mo miidasenu mama

to figure out any significance,

死にたい気持ちを抑え

shinitai kimochi o osae

I hold back the wish to die

食べる少し遅い昼食

taberu sukoshi osoi chūshoku

and eat a bit of a late lunch.

貴方の昨日のチャット

Anata no kinō no chatto

Unable to grasp anything from what you wrote

文字の思いは汲み取れずに

moji no omoi wa kumitorezu ni

in your chat yesterday

私は　遠い

watashi wa tōi

I gazed

空を眺めていたんだ

sora o nagamete ita n da

at the distant sky.

「君がどこかへと消えたのならば、

"Kimi ga dokoka e to kieta no naraba,

"If you were to disappear somewhere,

僕は覚めない悪夢を見る。」

boku wa samenai akumu o miru."

I'd be stuck in a bad dream."

そう言った　貴方あなたの目にはまだ

Sō itta anata no me ni wa mada

When you said that, I could still

煌めきが見えていた

kirameki ga miete ita

see a sparkle in your eyes.

もし私という存在が最初から

Moshi watashi to iu sonzai ga saisho kara

Suppose the being that's me

無かったとしたなら

nakatta to shita nara

never existed from the start.

苦しみも消えるでしょう

kurushimi mo kieru deshō

Then your suffering would disappear too.

貴方あなたなら

Anata nara

Someone like you

そんな　世界でも生きていける

sonna sekai de mo ikite ikeru

could still survive in such a world.

出会いが無いならば

Deai ga nai naraba

If you never met someone,

別れることも無いから

wakareru koto mo nai kara

you'd never get to part ways either.

そうでしょ？

Sō desho?

Isn't that right?

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素晴らしい世界　いくら想像しても

Subarashii sekai ikura sōzoo shite mo

However superb a world I imagine,

「違う」と　何かが　私を引き留めるの

"Chigau" to nanika ga watashi o hikitomeru no

something restrains me that says, "Not real."

つまらない世界　意味など無くたっていい

Tsumaranai sekai imi nado nakutatte ii

There doesn't have to be a meaning to a tedious world.

誰かに愛される　それは素敵なことだろう

Dareka ni aisareru sore wa suteki na koto darō

To be loved by someone, surely that's a great thing.

君との思い出も　間違いなんかじゃないさ

Kimi to no omoide mo machigai nanka ja nai sa

Nor are my memories with you a mistake.

生きよう。

Ikiyō.

I'll stay alive.

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