FAKE FADE

響き渡る赤い音

hibikiwataru akai oto

A reverberating red noise,

止マレの合図は

tomare no aizu wa

a signal to stop,

やがて壊れてくだけの

yagate kowarete'ku dake no

marks my meaningless existence

無意味な存在意義

muimi na sonzaiigi

which will merely eventually crumble.

すぐに会いたいよなんて

sugu ni aitai yo nante

I rashly said

無茶を言ったのは

mucha o itta no wa

that I want to see you rightaway

貴方の意識を少し

anata no ishiki o sukoshi

because I only wanted to

埋めたかっただけ

umetakatta dake

regain a bit of my consciousness of you.

互いの輪郭を舐め合い

tagai no rinkaku o nameai

Licking the contour of each other's body,

寂しさを分かつ存在理由

sabishisa o wakatsu sonzairiyū

to share our loneliness is our reason for being.

行ったきりそれきり戻れなくて

ittakiri sorekkiri modorenakute

Once we end there, we cannot go back,

ズルズル引きずる甘い繋がり探して

zuruzuru hikizuru amai tsunagari sagashite

and we search for a sweet connection to drag us on.

裂けてゆく　私の中核が

sakete yuku watashi no chūkaku ga

My core, tearing open,

歪ゆがんでは　また　求める

yugande wa mata motomeru

gets twisted and again seeks.

触れていて　気休めでいいから

furete ite kiyasume de ii kara

Touch me, even if it's temporary relief.

今だけはそばにいてよ

ima dake wa soba ni ite yo

Stay by my side, at least for the moment.

絡み付く糸を辿り

karamitsuku ito o tadori

I convinced myself

全てを縛れば

subete o shibareba

that if I followed the entwined threads

まだ貴方は貴方だと

mada anata wa anata da to

and tied them all together,

自分に言い聞かせた

jibun ni iikikaseta

you would still be you.

過ぎた時間に縋って　愛情測ると

sugita jikan ni sugatte aijō hakaru to

When I weighed our love, clinging to the time we've spent,

何もかも許せる気さえした

nanimokamo yuruseru ki sae shita

I even felt that I could forgive anything.

不確かなものほど優しく

futashika na mono hodo yasashiku

The more uncertain it is, the more tender something feels.

離れられないは恋愛依存

hanarerarenai wa ren'ai izon

I can't leave you from my dependence on your love.

目まぐるしく変わる愛の形

memagurushiku kawaru ai no katachi

I'll accept our ever-changing form of love

どんな明日でも受け入れる

donna ashita demo ukeireru

whatever tomorrow brings.

消えてゆく　相対の憧憬が

kiete yuku aitai no shōkei ga

As our fading mutual yearning

求めては　また　歪んで

motomete wa mata yugande

seeks and again gets twisted,

行き場ない　想いなら果てるまで

yukiba nai omoi nara hateru made

if my feelings have nowhere to go,

連れていって殺して

tsurete itte koroshite

then take me with you until they're used up and kill me.

零れ出す　透明な雫ごと

koboredasu tōmei na shizuku-goto

With each tranparent drop that spills

染み入るように流れて

shimiiru yō ni nagarete

trickling so that it permeates,

サヨナラの意味をまだ知らないね

sayonara no imi o mada shiranai ne

I still don't understand the meaning of farewell, do I?

傷痕這うナイフ

kizuato hau naifu

A knife trails along my scars.

それなら　このまま

sore nara kono mama

If that's how it is, then let's stay that way.

裂けてゆく　私の中核が

sakete yuku watashi no chūkaku ga

My core, tearing open,

歪んでは　また　求める

yugande wa mata motomeru

gets twisted and again seeks.

行き場ない　想いなら果てるまで

yukiba nai omoi nara hateru made

If my feelings have nowhere to go,

連れていって殺して

tsurete itte koroshite

then take me with you until they're used up and kill me.

混ざり合う愛憎

mazariau aizō

It's a mixture of love and hate.