灰雪 ♥ Gray Snow

崩れかけた言葉を　指でなぞるような

kuzurekaketa kotoba o yubi de nazoru yō na

Tracing ill-formed words with their finger,

子供のままではないけど

kodomo no mama de wa nai kedo

that's not the child I am now, but

知らない明日を　今日に怯えてた

shiranai ashita o kyō ni obiete'ta

I was scared of today because of an unknown tomorrow

冷たい背中を　感じて

tsumetai senaka o kanjite

when I sensed the coldness of your back

堪え切れなかったと　抱きしめあった日

taekirenakatta to dakishimeatta hi

Saying I couldn't take anymore, I mistook

“大人びた”愛　間違えて

“otonabita” ai machigaete

the time we held each other for "grown-up" love

無くしては消えて　その先に泣いた

nakushite wa kiete sono saki ni naita

When you lost the future I thought you wanted

望んでたハズの　未来を

nozonde'ta hazu no mirai o

it only led to tears

優しい残酷な　時間が軋きしむ

yasashii zankoku na jikan ga kishimu

Kind, cruel time creaks

体を抱きよせて　頬を濡らして

karada o dakiyosete hoho o nurashite

I held your body close and wet your cheek

気づいては離れる　顔を逸らして

kizuite wa hanareru kao o sorashite

avoiding the face that was leaving as soon as I noticed

ムゲンな幻想に　焦りを抱いて

mugen na gensō ni aseri o daite

I was impatient for countless fantasies

掴んだ手のひらは　冷たい

tsukanda tenohira wa tsumetai

but the hand I grasped felt cold

かざした天秤を　また引き換えて

kazashita tenbin o mata hikikaete

Exchanging again the scales I held up,

紡いだ温もりは　もう息絶えて

tsumuida nukumori wa mō ikitaete

the warmth we made now dying,

灰に変える雪を　その身にかけて

hai ni kaeru yuki o sono mi ni kakete

you put snow that goes grey on you

解いた隙間から　離れる

hodoita sukima kara hanareru

and falls away from unraveled gaps

眩しく見えた誓い　掻き消えた光

mabushiku mieta chikai kakikieta hikari

A vow that appeared bright was a light that disappeared

お互いの支配　逃して

otagai no shihai nogashite

as we let go of control over each other

踏み出した未来　突き刺した痛み

fumidashita mirai tsukisashita itami

The future we embarked on was a stabbing pain

もがいては更に　絡んだ

mogaite wa sarani karanda

When we struggled, we got even more entangled

何度でも“そう”でしょう　次はないけど

nando demo “sō” deshō tsugi wa nai kedo

We surely "agree" many times There's no next time for us

消えそうな雲行き　道が霞んで

kiesō na kumoyuki michi ga kasunde

Our future looks bleak The way ahead is hazy

見え透いた嘘うそ吐き　口を閉ざして

miesuita usohaki kuchi o tozashite

Seeing through our lies we shut our mouths

居付いては爛れる　時間の中で

itsuite wa tadareru jikan no naka de

If we stay together we'll fester in the midst of time

塞いだココロから　零れる

fusaida kokoro kara koboreru

It will spill out from our blocked hearts

僕らを繋いでた　指をケガして

bokura o tsunaide'ta yubi o kega shite

The fingers that connected us have been wounded

肌に触れる空が　ゼロを求めて

hada ni fureru sora ga zero o motomete

and the sky our skin touched seeks zero

零した言葉さえ　音を殺して

koboshita kotoba sae oto o koroshite

Even the words that spilled out of us have killed their sound

交わした吐息から　逸れてく

kawashita toiki kara sorete'ku

and have veered away from the breaths we exchanged

残した足跡は　もう小さくて

nokoshita ashiato wa mō chiisakute

The footsteps we left behind have already shrunk

離れて迷うなら　“僕ヲ忘レテ･･･”

hanarete mayou nara “boku o wasurete …”

and if we're going to part and lose our way, "Forget me ..."

欠けた檻の中で　まだ嘆いても

kaketa ori no naka de mada nageite mo

Even if I still grieve inside a damaged cage,

枯れ果てた景色は　消えてく

karehateta keshiki wa kiete'ku

the utterly wilted scene is fading away

願った未来には　ただ君がいて

negatta mirai ni wa tada kimi ga ite

In the future I wished for you're simply there

至った未来では　今引き裂いて

itatta mirai de wa ima hikisaite

but in future we've reached we're tearing us apart

かざした天秤は　僕を映して

kazashita tenbin wa boku o utsushite

The scales I held up reflect me

褪あせた雪のように　溶けてく

aseta yuki no yō ni tokete'ku

and melts away like faded snow